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Let’s get together and talk about the modern age
All of our friends were gathered there
With their pets, just talking shit
About how we’re all so upset about the disappearing ground
As we watch it melt

It’s all of the good that won’t come out of us
And how eventually our hands will just turn to dust
If we keep shaking them
Standing here on this frozen lake

I do this thing where I think I’m real sick
But I won’t go to the doctor to find out about it
Because they make you stay real still
In a real small space
As they chart up your insides and put them on display

They’d see all of it, all of me, all of it

All of the good that won’t come out of me
And all the stupid lies I hide behind
It’s such a big mistake
Lying here in your warm embrace

Oh, you’re almost home
I’ve been waiting for you to come in
Dancing around in your old suits
Going crazy in your room again
I think I’ll go out and embarrass myself
By getting drunk and falling down in the street
You say I choose sadness
That it never once has chosen me
Maybe you’re right

Let’s talk about all our friends who lost the war
And all the novels that have yet to be written about them

It’s all of the good that won’t come out of them
And all the stupid lies they hide behind
It’s such a big mistake
Standing here on this frozen lake

It’s all of the good that won’t come out of me
And how eventually my mouth will just turn to dust
If I don’t tell you quick
Standing here on this frozen lake

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“I’ve gone through terrible periods of depression. But at the core of my being, there’s a strange, out-of-place optimist. I’ve felt how I feel today since I was eight years old. I’ve always felt lonely, even if I’m in a great relationship, or surrounded by my friends and family. I don’t know what happened prior to that that made me feel that way. I’ve consistently tried to create an alternate reality. I’m removed in my real life, and unable to express certain things face to face. So I have always found myself in this fantasy world. That’s why I started writing songs and stories from a very young age. I’d much rather walk around anonymously cooking up tales than face the people that I’ve known forever. I like people, that’s the thing. I’m the most negative optimist you’ll ever meet.”

(via beautyisanillusion)