"i am still unsure of what ‘life to the fullest’ for me would be, mostly i just try to be well-liked in social situations and not die"
"…in the mere dream the relation is one-sided, that is to say, only one ego actually wills and feels, whereas the rest are nothing but phantoms. In the great dream of life, on the other hand, a mutual relation occurs, since not only does the one figure in the dream of the other exactly as is necessary, but also that other figures in his dream."
"is it normal to think ‘i hate myself’ but not take yourself seriously, but really be serious about hating yourself?"
#Brandon Scott Gorrell
"To be human—to exist in concrete reality and the imagination, to be material and immaterial—is to be paradoxical. And to transcend humanity—or, if that’s impossible, to go to where one can touch the wall, which bodies can’t cross, separating the human from the sublime—one first needs to be human, and embody paradox.
I imagine Mr. Knausgaard feeling on some level charged by his own existence, aware he’s closer to, or at least now positioned adjacent, the sublime as a result of the amount and scale of paradox he has accumulated in his life and, as a kind of side effect, generated in the world."
"Cigarettes are devices she uses to mark time. It comforts her to know that just by holding something, she receives a temporary identity of Person Smoking a Cigarette. People on the other side of the street will see her smoking and know that she is part of the world of cigarette smokers. They will not ask questions. She has always feared that the world sees her as she sees herself—a strange, wandering thing that could easily become detached from gravity, float out of the atmosphere and into space without anyone noticing."
"Woody Allen often daydreams about being buried alive and being exposed to other dangerous and tragic situations. Woody Allen thinks he could survive a hurricane, plane crash, flood, tornado, killing rampage, or even a zombie attack. Woody Allen still isn’t sure if he could survive being buried alive but the more he thinks about it the more he thinks that maybe he could. Woody Allen thinks that lonely people are better at escaping. Woody Allen thinks, “When most people who have many friends and close relationships with their families are put in a tragic situation, such as being buried alive, they think “i will be okay, someone will find me and rescue me,” They depend on others to help them, to be “heroes”. Lonely people know that one cannot depend on anyone to help them. They don’t understand the concept of “heroes”. Lonely people are calm. They can also hide well. Being calm and good at hiding is essential in survival.”"